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Monday, May 30, 2011

Not Failure, but Low Aim is Sin

It must be borne in mind that the tragedy of life doesn’t lie in not reaching your goal. The tragedy lies in having no goal to reach.

It isn’t a calamity to die with dreams unfulfilled, but it is a calamity not to dream. It is not a disaster to be unable to capture your ideal, but it is a disaster to have no ideal to capture.

It is not a disgrace not to reach the stars, but it is a disgrace to have no stars to reach for. Not failure, but low aim is sin.

- Benjamin Elijah Mays




this makes me almost cry.

my dreams within me, and my seemingly wild mind. and my hopes and my desires. and my creativity and the passion. OHHHHH the passion.

i never want to stop with it. i hope that we are loved for exactly those things. the things that make us think we are "crazy" women. hah! the things that we now think are holding us back or flawed in some way.

but are dreams make us who we are, unique and precious. they give us hope for prettier days. a fancy lil tea cup dangled on a string in front of my face. i worry that getting married/boyfriends/life/jobs/kids/everything else that takes up our time and thoughts—will diminish those dreams or hinder our ability to revel in our imaginations and goals. this is probably my greatest fear. i'm keenly aware of it, but i am afraid that it will happen subconsciously. has this ever happened before?? it has for me. and in those times, i'm not really myself. and im not really happy.


i'm happy when im blabbing on about the fine details (down to the weather and taste of marinara) of my imaginary trip to italia. i'm happy when im wearing my oxfords and rocking an outfit that totally doesn't match. i'm happy when my room is covered ceiling to floor with visual overload because I CAN'T get enough. i'm happy when im twirling out of control on the dance floor. i'm happy when im praying on my floor in muslim/yogi position for extended periods of time. and i'm happy when i'm deciding on babies names like it's the end of the world and their birth certificate is sitting blank in front of me.


GIRLS let yourself dream. go for it. go for it all. live big and live the life you want. let your minds wander to the gorgeous places you will go. let yourself grow and become that woman.

write your goals. prioritize what is personal to you. in that, there is happiness.


i'm just a girl and i'm aiming a lil higher.

desiree


Saturday, May 28, 2011

Throw this in mama's recipe book

"Don't laugh at a youth for her affections; she is only trying on one face after another to find a face of her own."
-Logan Pearsall Smith


Sometimes I want to believe that I've arrived. That I'm 'there' and I've 'made it'.
After all, isn't 24[ish] where we looked forward to as being grown-up finally? Where you no longer have to be looked down on or 'bless your heart'-ed...where stuff just works finally? 
Err, wrong.

Yes, fake it 'til you make it will still continue to be my motto but I also realize I need to cut myself some slack-even when other's won't.  You're never going to be this or that enough, there is always going to be something you have yet to learn or an experience someone else had before you got the chance. This is actually exciting because it means I'm not dead yet.
woo hoo!
I'm young but not naive and life is happening each and every day. Just let it man. 

My life is being orchestrated perfectly (big ups to The Big Man, doing an excellent job even though I whine through a lot of it) and my wisdom will come. He's only giving me what I can handle, small doses of smarts at a time so as not to OD.

I'm still being mixed and simmered and spiced to taste. Let me marinate because it's going to get even better.




-Tiana
I'm just a girl and I don't need cooking lessons, thanks.

Friday, May 13, 2011

Once Upon A Time...

Some day my prince will come
Some day we'll meet again
And away to his castle we'll go
To be happy forever I know.
-Snow White






And this my friends, is why it all began...
Here we go girls!